I guess there’s two burns.
Radiation. (pictures below if you want to skip down with out reading)
And it seems Bobby’s night job is coming to a close. Sounds like the rest of the building is done. Thanksgiving or Christmas and he should be done there. So, that burn is on him.
I frequently am asked if I'll return to work. I want to. I enjoy working outside of the house. Yet there is a big part of me that is absolutely terrified I'll be wasting precious time sitting behind a desk when I should be enjoying my family while I still can. But I may not have a choice in that matter.
Radiation is almost over. Then a few doctor appointments and I start on medication to…. Help…. Prolong….. life…… (damn. That is really hard to say. Prolong.) With all the turmoil of driving to various therapies on a daily basis coming to a close, I sit back and think…. What do I do now? I’ve grown accustomed to this new way of life and I don’t know how to act anymore. I don’t know how to be normal anymore. I don’t know what normal even is anymore. What am I going to do? What am I supposed to do?
I’m heading into new confusing waters of the unknown. Where there are no guarantees.
Effects of radiation…. so far
Draw backs, yes. Especially with the price of gas. Thank God for all of us it has come down almost a dollar in the past weeks.
The pictures below show the burns that occur with radiation. Yes, they give you cream. It’s more a regular lotion with an oily feel to it. Did it help? Maybe it would have if I was a bit more diligent with it. I used it couple times every day, but that’s just not enough. Perhaps it’s the dose I received.
Does it hurt? It was uncomfortable, and now hurts more. Especially when the seat belt hits the spot on my shoulder. It’s not like a sun burn. It’s more like…. Have you ever scraped a large area of skin off, almost like road rash… forgot that scrape was there, touched it and it hurt in a burn sort of way? Or washed that area and it burned? It feels more like that. There's spots where it hurts to the bone.
I frequently am asked if I'll return to work. I want to. I enjoy working outside of the house. Yet there is a big part of me that is absolutely terrified I'll be wasting precious time sitting behind a desk when I should be enjoying my family while I still can. But I may not have a choice in that matter.
Radiation is almost over. Then a few doctor appointments and I start on medication to…. Help…. Prolong….. life…… (damn. That is really hard to say. Prolong.) With all the turmoil of driving to various therapies on a daily basis coming to a close, I sit back and think…. What do I do now? I’ve grown accustomed to this new way of life and I don’t know how to act anymore. I don’t know how to be normal anymore. I don’t know what normal even is anymore. What am I going to do? What am I supposed to do?
I’m heading into new confusing waters of the unknown. Where there are no guarantees.
Effects of radiation…. so far
Draw backs, yes. Especially with the price of gas. Thank God for all of us it has come down almost a dollar in the past weeks.
The pictures below show the burns that occur with radiation. Yes, they give you cream. It’s more a regular lotion with an oily feel to it. Did it help? Maybe it would have if I was a bit more diligent with it. I used it couple times every day, but that’s just not enough. Perhaps it’s the dose I received.
Does it hurt? It was uncomfortable, and now hurts more. Especially when the seat belt hits the spot on my shoulder. It’s not like a sun burn. It’s more like…. Have you ever scraped a large area of skin off, almost like road rash… forgot that scrape was there, touched it and it hurt in a burn sort of way? Or washed that area and it burned? It feels more like that. There's spots where it hurts to the bone.
But, I’ll take radiation any day over chemotherapy. Hands down.
Aren't I embarassed about showing everyone the girls? Showing boobs doesn't seem bother me as much as posting my face on the internet. Actually, it's really amazing the things we get used to. A lot of people have looked at the girls in the past 9 months.
